A story of obeying God's calling though giving.
One of the things I was really struggling with was my tithing. I would listen to Jason talk about what we were doing here at Church Project, and the foundations we were helping support, and the churches we were setting up, and how it was getting difficult because the church community wasn't tithing how they were supposed to. I knew I was one of those people. It just clicked one day that not giving how I was supposed to was basically me telling God that I cared more about money and myself than I did about Him, and that I didn’t trust Him to take care of me.
The next time I got paid, I didn’t even want to wait until that Sunday to put a check in the box because I was afraid I’d find another reason not to, so I did it online. As soon as I woke up, I went ahead and set up my online payment. Before I sent it in, I prayed to Him and told Him I was sorry for not trusting in Him. I asked Him to bless it and do amazing things with it, and I knew that He was going to take care of me not matter what that would look like.
It was hard at first. I did it, but it wasn’t easy. The more I did it, the easier it got – not just in wanting to give that money away, but also in the financial obligations I once had to take care of that were so great – they were going down. Payments I had to make weren’t as much as they before. Opportunities were opening up at work that allowed me to make more money.
I realized I was holding onto something so small, and it wasn’t really doing anything for me. As soon as I gave it up to Him and trusted Him to take care of me, He had so many other things that He wanted to give. I struggled doing it by myself, and as soon as I allowed Him to take care of me I don’t understand why I didn’t do it before. Its something I can apply, not only in tithing, but any other part of my life – when I think He’s calling me to do something, and it seems crazy and I can’t possibly understand what’s going on. I was trying to do it on my own for so long, and I was struggling. As soon as I gave it to Him and trusted in Him, it just became so much easier.