Sunday I would be front and center in church keeping up the charade.

I grew up knowing and believing in Christ. My parents had me baptized at an early age, but I really just remember the water being cold and the pastor messing up my hair. Though I was in church every Sunday and knew the stories, there was never a relationship there. As I got into High School, this made it easier for me to live 2 different lifestyles. Mon-Sat I would use and abuse drugs and alcohol. Sunday I would be front and center in church keeping up the charade. 


It wasn't until my senior year in college that something truly changed. I met a girl who exuded happiness, confidence, and love. I was drawn to her energy. I found out that her secret was a real relationship with Christ. She showed me what that meant and I began to truly pursue it. To thank her, I married her a few months later. Pretty sure I got the better of that deal.

I want to be baptized today because for so long I pretended to have the relationship with Christ that others wanted me to.

I want to be baptized today because for so long I pretended to have the relationship with Christ that others wanted me to. Those who knew the other side of me, were shocked to find out I even believed in God. Having my faith questioned was a real eye opener for me. Was my lifestyle so far removed from God that others would laugh at the idea of me believing in and loving Him? It made me really look at who I was, what I believed, and the legacy I was leaving. Since meeting my wife I have developed the relationship I faked for so long. Though still far from perfect, my actions now more closely reflect my faith. My decision to be baptized has been a long time coming. Today I publicly profess my faith. I do so so that my actions will reflect my heart, to thank my wife for believing in me, and to lead my family. But mostly I am being baptized thank God for all his mercy, grace, forgiveness, and love.


PRODUCTION CREDITS
 

LINDSEY PORTUGAL, LINDSEY PORTUGAL PHOTOGRAPHY

PHOTOGRAPHY
 

justin crowe

writer